its really kind of weird feeling..
one moment im back home using my comp chattin, listening to music and surfing net..
the next moment im back in bunk starring at my bunkmates and eating tibits..

n e cycle goes on n on..

its already the 5th week of my bmt..
soon i will be leaving for tekong for my field camp..
den another 3 weeks im gg to pass out..

im definitely gg to miss my bunkmates..
they are such nice n cool ppl..
although there are flaws here n there..
but i think we all had a great time together..
if nt for them life in bmt will be a real drag..

field camp is coming up and my morale is super low now..
juz like whenever i hear the word SOC..
haha..
i left my SOC to clear!!!

now i have cleared my IPPT and done my chinups..
i hope my monkey bar clearable!!
hope tt my hands are strong enuff to swing my way thru..
there's this surge of pain in my shoulders whenever i hang myself..
i dunno why..
pray for it to go away..

i hope i can finish my bmt wif a gd tone..
passing my tests wif high-flying results..
currently im passin by a scratch of the teeth..

but im getting fitter!!
so i think i can do it!!
haha!!

well pray for me ppl

take care and God bless to all those reading this!!

=)

third week of commando bmt commences without a cry or a scream..
juz plain old wakin up in the morning and gg on wif our routine..

this week we had lessons on our rifle handling..
the SAR 21..

we were introduce to this weapon and learnt how to strip and assemble..
how to handle wif difficult situations..
how to do pt wif the rifle..
how to take care of our rifle..
so long and so forth..

den there was the test..
and everyone passed!!
praise God!

trainin is so tiring..
everyday run n run..
no time for the body to recover!
wad can i say man...

dad says something wrong is wif the trainin programme..
doesnt take an officer or anyone to realise tt the body needs to rest and recover for gd performance..
no wonder ppl die..
heh heh..

i haven seen my dad for 3 weeks le..
last time i saw him was like 2 days before i enlisted..
he left for work when i left to meet my frenz..
he said to me:
''all e best,
u can do it,
no problem''
and so i did..
okok except the pullups part..
other den tt i made it thru..

it was nice to see him again after so long..
and now he has left again..

the days in camp was rather hectic..
hada rush here n there..
wake up early to do this n tt..
had to fight the Z monster now and den..
and when u slp and e moment u wake up..
feels like as though u have slept for 5 minutes..

did my ippt again n i flunk it again..
i was so piss coz my first station was board jump and i did miserably poor coz my first 2 were no count..
i din care much after tt so i anyhow jump..
n i failed!
pullups was again another failure coz my arms were far too tired..
and i had put up more weight coz my when i run can feel e world crashin down on my legs..

how i wish i can improve on my fitness..
wif fitness done i guess i dun have much to worry.
.
CNY was around the corner and there was a happy hour..
haha..
lion dance and celebrations were held..
we had lao oh leh(something like tt la)
and celebrated all the bday ppl of this month!

book out day was so look forward to coz its a long weekend!! haha..
n now its ending.. =(
life's like tt rite..
and my body has yet to recover from all e pain and fatigue.

oh God pls bless me wif strength and health!!!
im crying out to u!!
can u hear me???

as days pass we gt to know one another better..
and honestly there are ppl pissin one another off nowadays!
im pissed and tt's for sure..
dun get on my nerves man!!

nvm..
lets be more forgiving..
my bunkmates and buddy rock big time..
ok certain ones!
nonetheless its coz of them tt makes life in there much easier..

the smiles hung on their faces and e floors we push together juz gets us closer!!

CNY came and went..
nothing much to say or talk abt..

we went to grandma's place and by den most have left..
usual..
collected some nice ang baos..
gg to fatten my account by saving it more..
cant wait to receive my pay too!! haha!!
den i can give my mama $$ and get my dad a pair of adidas runnin shorts!!


ok tt's all i wanna say..
pray for me dudes!!
strength, safety, health and excellence!!

for honour and glory,
''mK

after 2 weeks of staying in camp, coming back to society is a great feeling! we all definitely miss home very much and we all finally appreciate our parents and home!

for me e past 2 weeks in camp is a real challenge- physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually.

physically- its real demanding in this aspect especially when im a commando recruit. everyday there is running. run here run there everywhere run. run to cookhouse, run to the field, run from pt A to pt B etc.. run.. and nt forgetting chinups. this is real impt to me as i need to do at least 12 for my basic airborne selection. so pls ppl pray for me!!!!!!! im trainin hard and outcomes all my blisters! so u can see im trainin real hard for it. the runnin part i can handle it quite well. only chinups. my arm power isnt tt strong n so is my grip. so pls pray for me!! everyday im like doing 200 situps and pushups...

mentally- everything we do is a real test of mental strength. to get pass a day is a real miracle. haha! there are so many things to do n there's nt enough of slp. the brain is sure wipe out/ if nt the body is worn out. 7hrs of slp is like nt enuff for the body to recover. den e exercises are real strenous. besides ur physical strength, the mind is needed to overcome the barrier of laziness. i have to run 10 rounds and thk God im able to sustain thru out the whole run wif a comfortable and controlled pace.

emotionally- the feeling of missing family and frenz is juz pure pain. the feeling of missing home and freedom and fun is a real torture. plus e sergeants and higher up ppl are breathing down on ur neck day n nite. the feeling is juz real dead.

spiritually- with all e hectic schedule and demands, it is easily to stray away from God. not forgetting all the free-flow of vulgarities pouring on u day n nite, plus ur bunkmates spiting out vulgarities, it is so much easy to juz blurt it out and forgettin our christians morals n values.

well nonetheless is all up to me n how strong i am.

and i thank God for blessin me n being wif me all this while.

i thank God for:
1) lenient sergeants and instructors.
by far we have e most lenient instructors around. our platoon commander is also a nice person but also a tough person to be wif. among all platoons, my platoon instructors are like the most lenient. comparing wif others, we have done e least punishments(pushups) and they shouted the least to us. den again e only reason y we gt tekan is becoz of ppl who take advantage of them n climb over there heads.

2)gd bunkmates and platoonmates.
my bunk out of 16 ppl there is like 8-9 christians. maybe more im nt sure but there is alot. n i thank God that they are christians n we can talk abt the bible and christian stuffs. though they tend to wane, but we will always remind one another of God! =) my platoon has also quite a number of NCC ppl. thus our platoon is able to adapt and help one another fast. most of the things done in NCC is much simliar to camp so we are able to cope with the demands.

3)for God being so faithful and gd to me
He has indeed help me alot. though everything is up to me, He is there to ensure my safety and gives me encouragements. i thank God for all His help.

i needa train hard in my pullups. i really wish i can shine in my platoon n hopefully get to leader course. gettin in to commandos is a real honour and i believe God has placed me there for a reason and i hope to optimise it and make the best out of it.

that is all wad i wanna say..

oh..

wanna thank the cell for being there for me at nite.. haha..
ppl like chris, joshua blah blah tt i can call them at nite. after one whole day of work is nice to hear some frenly voices! ahahahhaa!! and thks to those who have been praying for me. ur prayers certainly helped me alot.

For Honour & Glory,
''mK

OKOK!! MY FINAL LAST FEW WORDS BEFORE I FINALLY OFFICALLY LEAVE FOR NS!!!!

some info first..

i will be confine for 2 weeks.. tt will be 14 days.. so counting from the 6th, i will most likely be released on the 20th.. so maybe i will come out on the 3rd weekend of this month.. by den i will be all bald n tan n fit. =P and i can only offically be a commando some time in november.. i will be gg through all the normal bmt stuffs tt all soliders will go thru.. den after tt i will commence my commando training.. o wells.. im gg to give my best for all.. haha!! yeah positive attitude! =)

if i book out on a friday. i will rush down for cell!! den i will share wif u all some interesting stories and events tt taken place.. n share abt my platoon or bunkmates etc..

im gg to pasir ris camp! tt means im nt leavin the island.. im still in mainland Singapore but in a far away n remote area tt u cannot hear my screams and cries.. haha!! o manz y am i joking abt this.. ok nvm..

thks to all those who came down for e last dinner wif me.. i appreciate it alot.. all the lame jokes and fellowshiping sure will be missed.. most of all i will definitely miss the company.. so im bring pics to my camp.. pics of the cell and my frenz n family.. and nt forgettin my bible.. the Lord is my strength! AMEN!

rite now im feelin a bit jittery.. so as all my other frenz gg in wif me.. like gg for exams.. juz tt this is far worst.. coz i dunno wad to expect. there isnt anything to study.. haha!! is like a total whole new subject n u dunno wad to study for but is gg to affect ur future.. the uncertainty is kinda freakin me out..

now gg to NS is like gg back to NCC like tt.. haha!! aiya dunno laaaa!!

i hope things are like not so tough la.. as in i hope there is no sergeants or officers wif some bad-ass attitude.. wont go abusing his power and all tt.. my dad says his time still have but now shouldnt have.. o wells juz go n see!

somehow i feel that God placed me in this commando thing. is his path n choice for me. n im walkin it! though be a commando is prestigious and all.. but it comes wif a price.. a high one which im gg to experience.

things to pray for:

1)safety!!
super duper uper impt!!! i dun wanna die!!! haha=P pray tt God will protect me from any harm or danger of any means. nowadays alot of news abt ppl dieing while training.. pray tt God will lay his hands on me n bless me! pray tt there wont be any accidents like truck bang tree or wad.. yupz!

2)strength
both physical n mental.. this 2 really comes together n i really them both.. all the route march and running.. is all in the mind.. but the body muz also be able to sustain! muz endure all the hardships and sufferings. so i really need them both. trainin is gg to be tough but i hope my body can also grow stronger and can cope wif it. pray tt God will bless me n pray tt i will rely on God for strength. He is my source of strength man! yeah~

3)excellence
haha.. i wanna do well in NS.. wanna be the best!!!! =P okok dun be so ego ah.. pray tt God will be merciful and grant me excellence.. tt i can shine in my platoon or company(4 platoons).. somehow or another.. God will have his ways so i pray tt i can shine. ultimately i hope to have a fruitful time in NS.. tt i can learn something n will benefit me when i finish and come out to the working world!

4)leniency
pray tt all e sergeants and officers dun be so harsh.. dun go over-board.. u know.. be reasonable n rational.. be merciful!!!!

5) spirits
errr nt wad u thinking.. pray tt i will always turn to God for strength and will contantly pray n seek Him.. tt i will grow spiritually and be a light in the platoon or company.

6)confidence
also pray for me tt i will have e confidence to things n carry out orders well. tt i will nt fumble and falter.. tt im able to display my leadership n help my platoon-mates.

ok tt's it lah...
if u can think of more, of coz u can pray for me=)

i really enjoy all ur company and will miss u all!!

if the sun is very hot and u r not comfortable with the scotching heat
dun worry u r nt alone..
i will be under the hot sun
marching, running, being punish..

if the rain is like pouring heavily and u r all drench n wet
dun worry u r nt alone..
i will be under the pouring rain
in e jungle running around, or still running

if u r being scolded and punish by ur teacher
dun worry u r nt alone..
i will also be scolded and punished more

if u r lonely and tired
dun worry u r nt alone..
i will be in a crowd of strangers and missing u all
and i will be half-dead coz of the lack of slp and all the hard training

so tt's all i wanna say!
we will meet in spirit =P

take care and God bless!!

''mK

yup the title says it all!!
tt's wad im talkin abt today.
haha!!

well i juz feel maybe i should write this..
share wif everyone y we should respect and honour our parents.

im no different from anyone ok..
i also use to go against my parents..
go against all e way..
thinkin im always rite and i dun really need them..

as much as i try to prevent..
there will be fights between us..
serious ones..

still remember i was being disrespectful to my mum..

i was gg to this place..
she still offers to take me there..
so i juz take it out of respect..
but den again she's nt gg there n instead she brought me to some other place..
man i was so fed up i started to tell her off..
my mum was so angry she screamed at me n ask me to get off her car upon reachin the place..
i couldnt stand her so i juz left n slam the door..

but i knew i was in big trouble when i gt home..

when she gt home..
we din speak to each other..

during tt time my aunt was there..
my aunt was my mum's younger sis..
her family came to sg for hols and had stayed at our place..
i guess my mum confided in her..

so secretly she came into my room n told me wad my mum has told her..
of coz i reasoned wif her n she understood..

den again is only tt time i realise wad kinda son i have been..

well it might have never occur to u..
but this is true..

parents are actually very bored..
not they are boring.. but they are bored..

they are like humans..
like u like me..
they have feelings and they are bored..

of coz they have frenz..
but they dun often hang out wif them like we do..
simply becoz their frenz are also parents n they too have their committment..
perhaps they might nt even have frenz for all u know..
they work hard to earn some money..
n for those who works knows tt working is definitely unpleasant..
especially those work tt one does nt enjoys..
is such a drag..
a real drag..
but yet they have to go thru like 9 hrs everyday juz to earn money for us..
n wad we take things for granted..

we go on wif our lives..
thinking tt everything is alrite..
everything is fine..
i will get money..
i will get food..
i will get my needs settled..

but have u ever considered wad is it like for them
having to give us money and yet no time spend wif them??
having to do work such as cookin n cleanin for u??

sometimes they say things for our own gd..
sometimes they are juz stressed n tired and wans to nag or use their position to order us around juz to get tt kick..
tt kinda statisfaction..
but we often end up talkin back n thinkin they are irritatin and crazy..

imagine havin to raise someone n spending all their time n money on a person..
n the person goes on with their own life n spend no time wif u..
how would u feel??

perhaps we should put ourselves in their shoes..
den we will understand wad is really gg on in them..

ok's tt all folks..
cya!

2006 finally arrives..
tt's nice..

i hope this yr is a gd yr..
=P

2005 was real hectic..

lets see..

had my A levels..
which was a real killer..
i hope i do well..
pray for me!!
results are coming out this yr!!

had my A div..
which was real crapy..
coz we lost every match..
when we are so well prepared n have been winning..
come down to the real thing..
we juz flopped..
haiz..

school juz zoom past me..
everyday was real hectic..
no chinese but had more lessons..
of coz there are some suckers tt i see everyday..
finally there are off me..

this yr have taught me many things..
mainly it challenges me all e values and promises i have made over the years..
all was put into tests n im glad i gt over wif it..

God was wif me all e way..
day after day..
tonnes and tonnes of crapp were haul towards me..
im glad i clear it..
though it is nt a gd n easy experience..
but it has taught me many things..
i think i came out a much stronger n wiser person..

now my days to NS are looming..
everyone is like tellin me wad to do n wad nt to do..

i hope i can get pass my this 2 yrs of NS smoothly and wif flying colours..
will mean a great deal to me if i ever succeeded..
i guess all e trials n tribulations tt i have gone thru is to prepare me for this very day..

my physical and mental strength
my determination
my endurance level
my personality and character
my wisdom
my leadership
my will-power
my faith

basically everything..

so 5 days more to go..
gotta prepare..
gotta enjoy..
gotta do it..

2006 will mark another chapter of my life..
a real significant one..
a yr tt i can keep it n tell my frenz n children n grandchildren as e time passes..
it is also a yr tt will decide my future..

well everything is in God's hands and im walkin His path..
why should i worry rite??

=)

take care n God bless folks!!
happy new yr!!

for those who have watch The Village..
there is one part where they spoke abt every household havin a black box..
the black box is hidden in the house and everyone has one..
in it contains things tt no one knows wad it is except e owner..
it is a secret and no one knows wad is inside..

of coz..
only the owner knows wad is inside..

as the show progresses..
e ppl will open the box..
the contents are revealed n the show goes on..

the box contains things that were nt shown to everyone in the village..
only those who kept it will know wad are the contents abt..
wad they are n wad they means..

everyone have a box..
everyone have a secret..

wad kinda secrets?
perhaps habits or objects?

lookin it at another angle..
it seems that everyone of us also have a box..
nt a literal one..
but it is something tt we will keep it from other ppl..
we will keep our secret safely inside us n no know one will know wad is it..

but is it really safe?

safe as in 100% safe?
that no one will know or be able to find out?
u think so?

time n time again..
there are ppl who had their secrets kept inside them..

but it also leaked out now and den..

and wad happens when it leaked out and everyone sees it?
how will u react when u see the secret?
how will u react when ur secret is been shown or being find out?

of coz the first thing u do the is to try and explain urself..
but den how well can u bring urself out of the hole?
how can u convince others tt wad u do is justifiable?
how are u gg to wiggle urself out of themess that has juz came to light?

its kinda difficult rite??

of coz for those wif the gift of gap can talk his way out..
but of coz..
it will definitely leave an impression or a deep imprint in the ppl's head..

so wad can we do to prevent such complications from happening??

haha!
well wad i do is..
juz be urself n present wad u really are to the ppl..
no pt keepin the box and fillin it wif all ur secrets..

of coz if the secrets are bad one we ought to get rid of it..

like i say..
juz be urself..
things will be much easier if u be urself..
wad u do and wad u live for is wad u are..
think abt it..

remember that..
haha..

countdown..
there are 3 countdowns for me..
countdown to christmas..
countdown to new year..
countdown to NS..

days are looming to my miserable fate..
oh wells..
everyone is gg..

suddenly the fact of gg into NS is starting to stress me..
everyone can see it..
haha!!

i dunno why..
guess i juz dunno wad to expect on the first day..
or the first week..
and subsequent weeks..
for sure im gg to get shaved bald..
cant wait actually.. wanna see how my head actually is..
i know there are certain dents and curves here and there..
haha.. kk nvm abt tt..

mama says i will come out to be a much better person..
better as in the future..
nt my character..
hahaha!!
mama also says i will do well in NS..
she says if i cant be gd..
den SIngapore army is no gd...
errrrrr...
well lets hope i can cope wif it and give my very best..
hahaha!!

cant believe im gg in..
my bro juz ORD lah..
and im gg in..
haiz..

Christmas juz passed quietly again this yr..
nothing much done actually..
but nothing beats spending some time wif frenz n family..

new year is coming..
i dunno..

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!

so sian!!

ahha!!
i think i will stop here!!

merry christmas folks!

crashed landed on SG on the 16th..
NEW YORK IS FUNN!!!
FUN FUN FUN!!!
its like my second home nw though i only stayed there for 10 days!!
haha!!
fun lah~

gettin a seat on e plane was kinda God's bless..
coz its e hols n is e peak period for ppl travel..
furthermore our tix were free and thus tt left us a standby ticket..
which means we cant get any confirm seats..
which means we have to wait until there is like still vacated seats after everyone has checked in..
which means we are left to wait like some fool..
outcome is definitely uncertain..

so we were given 3 tries..

like i told my mum..
God will wants us to go if He wills it..

however things were in a darker light..
coz firstly my bro couldnt joined us coz of an unexpected call by his HQ..
tellin him he cant go..
den i had this sudden airforce thing tt should have gone..
den seats are so tight..
so things are definitely like nt in gd shape..

nonetheless thru God's blessings we still made it for the flight!
i was rather passive abt it..
i dun really feel like gg..
rather stay at home n hang out wif church ppl u know..
play rugby n stuff like tt..
but nvm..
decided to go wif a more positive attitude after tellin myself tt this will be my last tri before i enter into NS! ahah!!

n so we went..

1st blessing came when we aboard e plane..
e plane was pretty spacious n was pretty comfortable!!
n it was a direct flight n we need nt transit!
cool rite??

first 2 days in NY did nothing much coz was wif my dad n we juz went to Time Square n look around..
nothing much really..

den we were left on our own after he left back to SG..
we hook up wif our relatives there n got to a place call Flushing!
funny name rite??
is like the 3rd china town in NY!

when we were there is pretty much like taiwan..
busy streets..
everyone speaks chinese besides the usual english..
there are chinese music n tv..
chinese food!!
so it is pretty much comfortable there..

on first nite we stayed in this horrbile inn..
HORRIBLEE!!!!
at nite u can hear water drippin down..
n its kinda weird coz e sound of water drippin n movin in e pipes sounds like someone opening a bottle n drinkin it n cappin it back..
seriously!!!
the walls are so thin tt every detail u can hear..
television was horrible times 2..
no gd shows.. no gd programmes.. no cable!
luckily we are there only for one nite..

next morning we left tt sucky place n make our way for the designated tour..
WASHINGTON DC!
ah it was so fun there..
took a big bus n all e ppl there were all fun-loving n kind ppl..
though each are from different countries..
but our race prevails..
jokes were said n unity was shown..
frenship was forged and food was eaten..
of coz tt is..
hahahahahah!!
there is a team spirit there n everyone clique very well..
my mum n i aquainted well wif this australian couple that was once from china..
den there were several ppl i sopke to..
a nice mate from indonesia travellin alone n a chinese professor..
learnt alot from them as i interact..

e trip to DC was a fun one..
definitely worth gg again..
there is so much to see yet so little time..
i wanna go again!! ahhaa..
those who are interested in american history ought to go there!!
coz its so worth it!!!
e national monuments and all those.. simply superb!!

dude i saw e white house!

after e trip..
we got back to Flushing again..
there we manage to find a hotel..
pretty decent..
nice toilet.. nice bed.. nice tv!!
oh during the tripp..
the hotels was gd too!
hahahahahha!!!
nice tv nice toilet nice room! tt's e best!
nt like the inn...

we went to book a second tour..
BOSTON!
went there see all e BIG UNIVERSITIES!
harvard n MIT
quite nice! hahaa!!
gt big snow also!!
the tour grp was a much younger bunch..
simply becoz we went on e weekend and so they have no school..
during a trip i gt myself a free purple!!
ahhaa!!

nt so close la these ppl..
also they went on their own ways to eat also..
haizz...

but manage to speak to this fine lady who is from Spain..
She's a doctor in NY n is like on a grant!
so cool!! hahaha!!

soon the trip was over n we left a few days to ourselves..
my mum n i wanna go shopping n wans to get to this place call WOODBURY COMMON!
a place whereby u can shop for branded stuffs at a super cheap price!!!
we were gg for a huge killing!!

n so we did!!
we manage to figure our way around in NY..
takng trains n walking around..
figuring our way around in a strange land is pretty scaryy..
hahahahahahha!!
bought lotsa stuffs!!
shirts, shorts, pants blah blah...
lots of them..

nite came pretty early like 5pm e place is dark..
so we make our way back n had chinese food again at Flushing!! ahha!
its like a routine..

wake up..
take train to manhattan time sq..
den shop..
very simple liao...
as it gets colder n our pockets get burned deeper..
we decided to head home..
n we bought so much things liao..
so better go backk...

we were real bless to hear tt there is a transport company by the chinese in US has cars to bring ppla round!
so cool!!
call n they came!!
we went to JFK airport n was real full!
e staff there was very helpful n call to find out there is actually another plane tt has 11 seats free n is at the other airport!!!
we call e company again n soon it arrive n brought us there!!

though we were pretty much early..
we were takin e same plane n a direct flight!!
n so we head back home..

this is pretty much summerise..
but i wanna thank God for all his blessings!
bless us safety n an enjoyable trip!
n thru i have grown more now..
my faith has up another level..
and nothing is impossible!
there were serveral challenges that he set in my heart n i manage to do it well!

praise n thank God!!

so tt's it for now!! cyaa!!!

God bless!!!!

today celebrated Josh's bday!!
18 liao.. so fast..
heh heh..

okok!!
welcome to the 18 yr old club josh!! aahahha!!

n kailing was so sweet n so nicee to pull a big surprise for him..
lighted candles and flowers..
big nice choco cake and a superb lookin watch!

man im so envious....... not!!
hahaha!!

happy tt josh is nw 18, a yr older..
let me pay a lil tribute to him..
my words of honour!

Josh is definitely one great guy!
a super lamer.. okok.. a super joker-wannabe!
hahaa!!
but nonetheless his jokes nv fail to crack n open someone up..
he's like e heartbeat of the cell..
withhim cell is rather quiet and tone down..
he has a big heart for God n serves God tirelessly!
Josh is a person tt is in control of himself and knows wad he wans..
though act a bit childish but am sure he will know wads he doing sometime or another..
will nv forget e times we had together..
studyin in TP library durin his promos and my prelims n As..
sure had lotsa fun wif him and had a great time fellowshippin wif him!
i still rmb e times whereby we are eatin rojak and talkin abt our school and wad problems we face..
den take bus back den hada split up..
not forgettin our knuckle-knocks when we depart!
haha!!

okok!!
i hope Josh have a rockin gd time being 18!
all e best to his life, relationship and future endeavours..
nt forgettin e dreaded A levels comin up!!
haha!!

ok folks..
that's all..

i will be leavin for states and be back probably on the 15th..
pray for safety alrite??
thks alot!!

and to all my frenz in SG..
take care n God bless!!

peace~~~

oh btw..
thks for responding so actively on my tagboard!!!
=)