ages have passed since i last blog..
as usual..
been so busy n so tied-up tt doing own things is so difficult..

lots of events and things have passed..

i finally pass my BMT n had my POP parade..
juz my luck tt i dun have a block leave n hada go back one following nite..
well same as everyone..
though feelin sian but den again there's always my platoon mates to be wif..
those tt i had so much fun wif n had such strong esprit de corp..

but den we were told to split to vocational courses..
so we are now staying under course level!
jzu great..
now everything is like BMT from e start..
whole lot of things to do..
most sian thing is tt we have to know everyone again..
haiz..

thank God things gt better e second day..
ppl began to open up n talk more..
realise some of the course ppl are nice ppl to talk to..
den again there are some flaws and errors tt needa be accepted..

had 2 weeks of cross trainin after POP..
transition trainin from an infantry to commando..
so did alot of commando things..
more weapons.. more skills.. more knowledge..
zzzzz...
lessons and plans were like screwed up here n there..
i think e instructors and superiors can feel it themselves tt things arent runnin smoothly and there are many major hiccups..

well e 2 weeks is finally over..
and im gg for my airborne course!!!
finallllyyyyy!!
e long awaited course is finally here!!
haha!!

now still in trainin n things are gg quite routinely..
wake up eat breakfast do some pt  den attend lessons..
have some hands on den tests..
goes on n on..
i really wish to have my red beret now..
turn ops and get settled down..
there are so many other things to do for me..

my future is so bleak..
i need to have plans and directions..
everynite i pray for help..
n slowly things are revealed to me..
juz need a little bit of faith.. juz need a little paitence..
nt sayin im impatient or faithless..
juz nt in a happy n joyous mood..
hate it!

i really wish i can have someone to be wif n talk to..
someone tt i can geniunely be comfortably wif and like to be wif..
someone there for me n brings a smile both in my heart and my face..
someone tt i can truely like n love..
someone tt i can think of in camp or having trainin or gg thru some rubbish..

juz someone..

actually have but juz wish she knows it..
n juz wanna let her know...................................................................

heh heh..

gd nitey